Monday, September 7, 2009
Unique? Special?? Space Alien???
I wish I wasn't so different. I wish it wasn't so obvious I am so different. People notice, teachers notice. My government teacher noticed in one class. She knew I was the odd one out. The outsider. She called me an anarchist. My shrink called me a space alien. My mother tells me things about my past. What teacher's say about me. How I am a delinquent. Why can't I be like normal delinquents? Normal delinquents do drugs and get in trouble with the law. I'm just odd. I say stupid things without thinking, I have awkward interests, I like being the clown. Should my mental disability be classified separately from the rest of the retards? Should my behavior have it's own branch. Maybe I am a space alien. Maybe I should crawl into a hole and bury myself alive? Would anyone care? Anyone other than my family. Would my friends notice? I wouldn't notice. People move on, no ones going to remember me after high school. I doubt I would keep in touch. I push people away, the upkeep of having friends is to much work. So many questions. Will my life get better? Or worse?
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you aren't merely odd... you're unique. that's something the majority of people strive for, and ultimately look like carbon copy clowns.
ReplyDeletei really think your life will be better if you want it to.
if you think college could be a good part of your future, i seriously will help you get there. it's up to you though. if you don't think you want to, that's ok too.
lol it's ok... just stop calling me a dork or a nerd for every little thing i say! lol
ReplyDeletei'm not even THAT nerdy
lol so you never answered me... do you want to try the ACT for college or not?
ReplyDeleteI would miss you, i just met you, but i would still miss you.
ReplyDeletethe moment i met you i recognised you as a good person... mostly becase you wasted your time talking to me.
but the world needs more good people and im certain that the world would miss you.