I feel like psychologically I'm not as developed as I should be. Like shouldn't I be boy crazy or something? Shouldn't I be going out with friends? I know that I have trust issues and I know I push people away. I shouldn't do this but I do. I've even started to do this knowingly! I don't know if I can be in a relationship? I have trouble with non-romantic relationships how the hell am I suppose to deal with someone who expects that much more of me. How am I ever going to trust anyone? My father has left me, friends have dropped me..everyone that has ever meant anything to me has disappointed me. So why should I be anything to anyone else.. That is probably why I don't care about people. People are way to open. I mean crying when your friend moves or feeling sad for a person when something happens. Are you kidding me! Really? Or people that say really awkward things like romance quotes, pet names, sweet dreams or like oh baby I miss you so much..Give me a break! Really anti-romance!! Gerr poor Budge lol