I need more cats!

Uh it seems like all my posts for a while are going to be about Adam Budge! He is really great..but really I have nothing to talk to him about. I'm not an interesting person..I hate keeping the conversation going..none of my friends could carry a conversation on if they tried and I hate always doing it..so I just stopped trying. Also I don't talk to boys anymore lol! Boys and I have nothing in common..except thongs..Like how I wear them and how Budge likes them?? I'm really skeptical how he is going to make this work. And how he can find value in a person who barely even likes her own mother. Especially since he is dumping his girlfriend because she has trust issues when I have trust issues that are more than likely worse than hers. Like to loosly quote Adam...I wouldn't even need to throw them in order to figure out how much I would trust them. Like he is just saying all these things he doesnt want/like and all I can think is oh..yea I am going to do this and I am this and oh I don't think I can handle that. I'm not like other girls! I'm shallow, harsh, unpassionate, immature, awkward, negative, pessimistic

In my mind it doesn't matter if I like a person it matters if it is going to work out. I have less than a year left of school, no classes with him..I'm lucky if I see him once a week. Plus he is two years my junior. At least he didn't lie about his age to get into my pants like Hugh...shoulda changed your fb little buddie!
Like I know I can be Valeries friend cause she is always in art club and takes the time to talk to me when I dont
and I can be Mirandas friend cause I'm good friends with her mother and our mothers get along
People like Ally, Jessica, Rachel ect. I will only be friends with them for a semester so I wont attempt to establish any social interaction outside of class
Seriously all this crap goes through my mind when choosing friends. I'm already starting to break away from people like Miranda and them cause I know we will lose contact after senior year..I'll most likely shutdown my facebook and stop answering texts after I graduate. I have no plans to keep in contact with these people. They mean nothing to me after graduation. I mean this may make Valerie mad cause she wants to have a meaniful relationship but I just can't, I don't know how.