to all my readers

Thank you for your support. There are just too many of you so I have to thank you all! your comments really help me get through the day and make me feel like I have a potential as a writer, I hope that I can sell my blog, like Julie from Julie and Julia. Girl power!!
Keep your minds happy and your pants happier
-chersey

Lolz

So mother comes in depressed and what not and apologizes and begs for me to forgive her. I only forgave her because I coughed all over her pillows and stole her Nintendo DS cord. Win

My mom is such a boob and I cannot even fathom the idea of coming out of her. I tell her that I don't want to go out to pick graduation dscorations and she cries has a hissy fit and grounds me from the computer. All after she demanded I go to school with a serious cold, migrane AND tummy upsets. She even threatened to not call me in..witch. And then she sobs I ask nothing of you cant you just do this one thing for me? Screw you mom you ask everything of me and I've never been enough.

*Sigh*

It really surprises me that one of the smartest persons I've ever met is so immature. Mixing food to get a rise out of your friend every day seems like a pointless process to me. I wish she would've gotten denied to her college so she would know what it feels like to be rejected. Oh well, at least she's ugly. Anyways, went to the shrink again. As usual I am supposedly always mad/sad and always thinking about my 'traumatic' past. Whatever. And to add insult to injury she suggest I may have a learning disability. What's new? I can add this to my other disorders. Now, I can be even more mentally retard than the average dork. Meh, anyways I finally got my grad dress at Downtown Diva. The woman that works there, Marjorie,is just like ME! I was smitten with her at first sight. She owns her own fashion store, gets to travel all over the world to pick out dresses, has a husband and is completely fabulous elderly woman. I wish I could be just like her when I grow up. She gives me hope that maybe someone that acts like me can be successful in life.

Holy Baby!

So news of two people getting pregnant in one week! One by a guy over the internet and one by some guy she had sex with after the prom! One is keeping the baby the other is having an abortion!

Holy Bazongas!

Well, all the melons I've seen this week make me feel like I'm in a grocery store! Miranda and Destini's fruits? Holy Bazongas!

So Stinking Cute!

Soo..my cat, Dodge, has gas. It smells horrible!

blah blah blah this week is going extremely slow. I only have work three times this week which is kinda frustrating. I got my brakes fixed, tank filled, haircut, earring changed and a detention taken care of. All out of my pocket. You would think having a ring ripped out of my half healed cartilage would hurt more than detention but good god I swear I sat there forever. It was actually about 45 minutes in which I could be earning money. I think my money obsession comes from the fact that my mother is uncontrollable when it comes to spending hers. I wouldn't trust her with a dime of my money. I like to hoard my money and spend it on things I like.
I also managed to tip over in a cart I was riding in and skinned myself from knee to elbow. That was fun. I'm looking forward to seeing the pictures of that one on facebook. I worked on prom. I made close to $300 dollars! It was the most memorable prom ever!
Idk but for awhile I'll be sitting around being told how angry I am and how sad I am so I think it's going to be a depressing month. ttml

Wooooooowww

There is something wrong with this girl. Not only is my my mind unfiltered and raw it also lacks the ability to retain any lessons learned. I finally stepped over that line and didn't even recognise I did so. I mean what makes my mind think this is normal? Seriously I wish SOMEONE was like me. I wanna be a therapist as a job perfession. Maybe I could help someone. Someone who people don't understand like me. It seems like therapists are only taught what to see and none of them experience any of the real symptoms. I have to realise that I am not funny and I am not a little girl anymore. I want a therapist that I can talk to not one that sits there and tells me what I'm doing wrong. I mean seriously I don't think she knows anything about me. I want REAL therapy!

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Umm?

Why did Valerie invite herself to Jenna's party? She isn't even apart of our group!She wasn't even invited!! She always has to be in other peoples buisness. And she knows I'm friends with Jenna and would hopefully be there..Wow is she for once actually going to stand up for herself? Or is she trying to show me that she does have a life by purpacely inviting herself to a party I'm going to? We talked about this over lunch when they brought up she weaseled her way into the party..supposedly they were good fiends in ELEMENTRY..this is not elementry anymore..whatever I swear the whole group only bitches about people behind there backs.

I really want to go to the party but I will be in Crookston for a funeral..my step grandpa's son died. I hopefully will be able to make at least a part of the party. Then I have work at 7!

Ranting and raving

LOYO has gotten really obnoxious. The people in my class cannot learn that this kid has a mental disability! It's not his fault he's obnoxious he has Aspergers for goodness sake! Do they not notice the para sitting with him?? Uhh it is so irrational for me to be the one who actually feels bad for this kid while others seem not to get it. It's hard to believe that I can actually befriend these people. I can only be mean to capable individuals. People who are intentionally acting the way they act. Gerr my back hurts I've been working like crazy and have had appointments frequently. I have one on wednesday so I can't go to art club:/ Odden asked me if I wanted to be nominated for a scholarship! She is so sweet, I'll take it if I ever apply to college. I know how to now so I just have to get my lazy self to the counseling office to pick up a form for NDSU and MSUM. I want to stay close to my cat. I'll miss him in college. I think I would die without my snugglepuss:) Right now he's napping under our rug waiting for me to take him to bed. I should do my homework now but I don't care to at the moment. I wish I had ambition..

Ok not even kidding you are pissing me off. Like last week when we were waiting with Elizabeth and you talked to her the whole time but the only thing you said to me was a short sentence about me being a nuisance. Then you ignored me. Thanks. I do not even want anything to do with you at all. You don't even notice my existence in the hallway. And don't give me that stupid personality shit. Seriously if you had that wouldn't you be avoiding everyone? I would tell you to fuck off except you already erased me from your mind completely so...It's my problem because I still like you as a friend and you don't even consider me an acquaintance

Busy Busy

My life has gone from zipo to like a tornado of crazy. I have so much to do and so many people to see! It's like I don't have time to do homework and I don't have time to eat. I feel like so many people are just like calling me up and wanting to hang out. It's gotten to the point where I am so stressed I'm not going to fit all this shit in. With work suddenly picking up and all these people I'm like backed up from four to midnight. Luckily I save some time for myself after school. I go to art and do my favorite stuff..make things for me!! lol.
Ok so life since I've last written..no particular order.
Last week I had a french exchange girl hang out with me. She was really quiet and blew her nose a lot..she reminded me of my grandmother. She only drank water with her meals and was amazed at how unstructured my classes were. While she was in my classes we took a field trip to the mall and Kennedy read us a Dr. Suess book..I can see why she thinks what she does..I liked her a lot but I'm glad I don't have to entertain her anymore..She was to young so I felt like I was devirginizing her or something introducing her to like my pregnant friends and stuff. All my friends are like we should smoke and I'm like um 15 year old french exchange student in the backseat lets make a good impression ok? I'm sure she was just amazed at me since for the past two weeks she had been hanging out with the HUGEST NERD (other than Valerie) in the whole school. Actually Valerie is smarter than Miranda but Miranda like shows it off like she has no other interesting traits about herself. Her and her mom like talk about nerd stuff for fun.. It is amazing.
I also have gotten a new private job. The woman I work for calls me a domestic engineer haha she is so strict with her children. Her discipline style is so bazaar it's hard to follow her rules. She is constantly telling me how she does things and its like wow. Both of her children are adopted. I swear the little girl is going to rip me to shreds. I'm sure she weighs at least half of me and she insists on jumping on me and sitting on me. I am a horrible disciplinarian. I don't get angry easily. The last babysitter supposedly spazzed out at her because she was so bad. I get deadpan angry when she gets wily but at least I don't freak out. That brings my weekly income to at least $120. Which isn't bad since I only work 3 days a week.
I also took a self defense class. That was interesting. I went with Miranda and my mom. It was hilarious because my mother paid eleven dollars for some guys to choke us. We were doing these really odd moves where they would like choke us and we would have to get our selves up to a wall and bang there heads up against it. or one where they would grab us from behind. Idk it was really fun though. I enjoyed it a little too much and started talking to much. Ok Miranda is the weakest person ever I would just poke her and she would be on the ground..I'm like really. I weigh the same as her and I'm like 3 inches taller than her. She would be raped for sure if someone ever tried too..
Oh and then I'm at class today and Taylor writes me this letter because her bf thinks shes cheating on him because someone wrote him that she was doing Andrew Ochoa. First of all that is hilarious Andrew looks like a fetal alcohol syndrome child. I would more likely believe she is fucking Greg Radcliffes fat folds. I just get mixed in with a bunch of shit.
I also got to go to Yunkers farm and to the Human shelter to pet kitties! I scored 5 tickets off of Potter for free so I took the french girl and some friends to see the force game..we won obviously.
I have to go its almost time to leave..I'll ttml

Well, obviously Destini does not like me anymore. We started a new project in fashion trends and the first words out of her mouth were "can I work alone?". So now I have to work alone. Oh well, I knew I would fuck it up eventually. I went to bike club yesterday and Jenna and I won 5 tickets to the force game. I don't really like sports but I will make due. I am really excited to go skiing and to have the french girl in all my classes next week. This morning I got to skip class to go make pendents with Odden. That was awesome. They said my cat was ugly though..:(. And I burned my finger well soddering my piece it hurts like a son of a bitch and turned white. I just want to go and eat stuff. Maybe I'll jack Kathryn and go to McDonalds during lunch. But then I will lose my parking space and that would piss me off even more. My attention span has gone down the drain I am the only person not working on their project right now. I can tell because I sit in the back and can see everyones screens. We have to make a childrens book so I am doing one about Dodge, the love of my life. It will probably be about his little quirks. It's sad that my life is so boring that I resort to facebook and writing in this damned online journal. Even though no one reads it I have gotten in the habbit of posting. It's where I can write down all the things that are on my mind and I can look back to older posts and laugh when I'm having a blah day. Got to go..TTML

Meh!

I've been naughty again. Honestly why I'm not put down is beyond my comprehension. I've been kind of outlandish in Kennedy's class. Saying things that I shouldn't. He had a conference with my mother to tell her about the inappropriate statements I spew and unintentionally called my mother fat. Honestly how he can make accusations and diagnoses on my character is so ridiculous when he does the exact same thing in class. Obviously though that because I am a student it is more of a problem since I am a lower class. That and I am being cynical in Yarber's class. Supposedly she does not know how to perceive me. The children's book titled 'It's Ok to Be Different' we read in class does not apply to me apparently. I don't see how she can be so closed minded, so what if I'm depressing and rude. Your a creative writing teacher for Christs sake. It's not like she has importance or nice hair she shouldn't expect much. People are wusses...
So recently I took out Heather and we unintentionally skipped our Field trip and went to McDonald's. I went out with Kathryn and Rachel did some Henna and watched Hangover Unrated! Umm I went to parent teacher conferences by myself and stole Miranda away to go to McDonald's and I told her to head down University but she insisted we go to one closer. Well that was a horrible decision. We ended up in Moorhead and the only way we got back was when we spied a sign that said Fargo with an arrow. I get to go baby shopping with a couple friends later this week and I went to take pictures at a bar with Annmarie. I also get to do something really fun on Wednesday morning but I can't tell what it is. I get so much leniency in this school it's really nice. That and I am in good graces with a lot of the people. Librarians, principals, paras, and the FACs department all give me special privileges. I swear I have seen almost every nook and cranny in this building just because I have friends in high places. I'm working on wooing the Janitors too (not sexually sicko) :). Either a person appreciates me or thinks I am awful. This is why I like children they don't take things the wrong way. It's like everything I say is seen as something I wasn't even thinking about. People just assume everything I say is going to be one way. And it's not my fault I'm so cynical I don't even notice when I am. The way I act is normal to me. Why can't other be normal with me? Why do people have to be so abnormal??

*sigh*

This is the LAST time I will evere be nice to a retarded person! Now this little boy with Aspergers has a massive crush on me. The fact that Kennedy would even assume I would have Aspergers is a huge disrespect now. I am nothing like this kid! WTF!! He gave me a valentines card with the most awkward poem and he sent me a kissgram. *sigh*
I have to get a lot of kissograms for a lot of people. Ok mostly just Rachel, Marissa, Miranda..and Jessica Day? Ha yea she was talking about how she wanted someone to get her one so I'm like I'll get you one lol. I'm assuming she thinks I was joking..boy is she wrong. Also for some reason Destiny Spaeth is being fairly nice to me. Like she is talking to me?? Here I thought I was invisable, I'm guessing she just wants to use me but whatever.
I have also been attempting to hang out with Rachel Olson too. Her boyfriend is so freaken clingy she never has time to hang out. Grow some balls. I have so many errands to do! I hate going by myself. I like to take a friend. Most of my friends don't let me drive though lol....ttml I is bored

Work, work, work

So I recently fell walking into school..I pretty much lay there and pretended to die for about 5 minutes. Then Amber was gone so I had to work with two foreign people. I want to work with Americans! The whole class is American except for two people..those two people both happen to be in my group. WTF then there's a para but she is with perfectly capable individuals! Hello I am over here with these people by myself and they barely speak English! They couldn't even find the Crisco! They can't read!! Then after school I actually got to do what I wanted and I brought some scones to Glasheen, Odden, and Langlie. So first I stopped by the art room and offered Odden a scone then I headed over to the other room where I sat with Glasheen. He finally fired my pendents..my favorite one didn't turn out but the other two looked pretty good. Glasheen can be extremely controlling but he is really nice. I like him:)Then I went to Langlie's he ate the rest if the scones. We talked for a while and then I went home. I got my GPS went to Platoes and got a cute cardi and and shirt. Today I worked at Herberger's then I went to work and I just got back..Oh and the thing I couldn't say was that I got a navel piercing. My mom figured it out some how. I'm assuming she got into my account..w/e I'm tired ttml

Crazy Muffins!

Wow so yesterday I find 5 dollars in front of the school. It pays to be lazy I haven't opened the door once this semester because I always use the handicap door. That is where I found the money. So then in fashion trends two black girls put cornrows in my hair! It hurt real bad. Then I got to go with Nelson to talk to some math classes about the FACS department. I went to the grocery store to pick up snacks for art club with Valerie..she wouldn't let me drive:( Came back went to art club and got my hair tied with hemp. It took forever I guess I have really slippery hair. Then I got a haircut and took my mom out to dinner at subway. It was delicious I got bacon. Today I have an appointment with my drug therapist. I plan on asking her if I have Asperger because my math teacher thinks I have it..I'm pretty sure the decade of multiple therapist would have caught if I had Aspergers..But whatever. Then I go back to school to do concessions with Chinese club and then I work! Crazy.

Talking to myself

There are so many things I want to write down right now! I promised I wouldn't tell though and it's killing me!! I also did a little something with Annabelle last night...no we didn't have sex:S..heads outta the gutter people. No, I can't tell yet what it is but I'm pretty excited about it.Anyway so yesterday I stole Annabelle away from Jordan and after we dropped off Emily we went to the Moorhead Target and Walmart LOL.Plus One World, Lena K's and Odey Cache(it was closed:() By the way Emily kissed me three times on the neck, it was awkward. Anyways I got 6 wooden buttons for the cardigan I dyed brown and some sweater tights. I don't know how I feel about the tights yet.Then we went to McDonald's had a snack and drove back to Fargo..There we did something and I dropped her off at her house and that was my day yesterday!

What a crappy senior year.

All my classes are so distant, I don't feel that I can makes friends with anyone. This is worse than Management class with the popular kids. I was the biggest freak in the class. I've made friends in 1 of my classes. Fashion Trends..Miranda is in my chinese and webdesign 2 class. That makes things bearable. Also I can't eat lunch because I dont have a seat with my friends. So I end up looking like an idiot just standing there because theres no room for me. I decided I will be going to the web design computer lab instead of eating. I am assuming I will be blogging a lot for a while. Today is such a horrible day I found out yesterday that I can't sleep on my stomach with a belly piercing. I can't sleep any other way and I already have trouble sleeping as it is. I could just cry:(

Snow Day

I was really looking forward to going to school:(. I bought a new necklace from a woman in England that I am super excited about. I hope I like it as much as I do now as when I get it. I'm starting to get worried it's going to be bulky.
I also got this cute hat from Kohls. :) It was only 10 dollars haha. This is the only picture I could find of it. My choice in fashion has gotten pretty hippy. I like leather, silver and stones. I still really want to get my belly button pierced. I wonder if I need to make an appointment??...Dude! I hate it when people have a blogger/journal and they dont write about themselves. They just copy and paste some random stuff...IDK ttml

Wahoo!

Finals are over and I never have to go to Government, Sociology, Clay or Photo again! I have 8th of next semester off so I plan on going to either Photo or Clay to hang out but no more assignments in either! So I had lunch with Annmarie twice and Rachel and the gang once. I brought some Tarimasu and White Chocolate Raspberry Cheesecake and had dessert with Lemke (the para at South). Then Taylor called me because she got stuck at the mall haha so I went to pick her and her friend up and almost ran her over:) oops. Also I hung out in Potter's office after school on thursday to see his band play the song Mony Mony by Billy Idol(it was a video). He was so cute when he was 17 lol. Also on the same day I got to make a decal for my car that says PIMPMOBILE THUG LIFE so if you see that sticker..that's my car LOL. I also got my senior pictures back! Aspen is super awesome. Dian Garber even added my cat to facebook lol. I just got home from work. I started at 7:30 pm and just got home and still have to go back tomorrow! I had to drive home at 1:30am and I work next to a bar LOL. I hope I get to go up to Whapaton tomorrow! We will see. Anyways I'll ttml later I am super tired..good night to me.

Doesn't get any better than this...

Wow, life has been a hassle! I will retell my events in no perticular order.....
My car would not start this morning so my mother had to give me a ride to school so I was 15 minutes late. In photo class I figured out how to make coloring pages out of photos. So I got to color myself in sociology..can't get anymore self-centered than that. Mrs. Hyde wants me to join speech..I am not paying $50 to pee myself thank you. My whole outfit is so cute! Gray long sleeved scoop neck shirt with a black sweater vest and plaid scarf, jeans and my black boots!! My hair is a wreck but I almost find it cute in a messy/frizzy way. For New Years I spent it with Miranda. I had to drop off my id to Vi first though..My mother and I had another fight and I left without telling her where I was. She found me eventually though when she called Miranda. I had fun with Miranda's mom most of the night until the last 10 minutes till 12 when Miranda was crazy with her application and her mom and I attempted to help. I also made Miranda and I cupcakes in which my finger was severly burned. LOL not really. I feel bad that I left Miranda's mom to watch The Duchess by herself and I accidentally left my ham sandwich on the counter! How rude of me!! Since we didn't get to celebrate Christmas on Christmas day we celebrated last saturday. We played the dice game for at least 20 minutes and I never rolled a double:). I hate when you grow into the teenage years and everyone gets you really unpersonal gifts. Like my younger cousins got actual gifts but my 15 year old cousin and I got pop. Or when you get to sit around and watch the children opening presents and you have nothing to open because you got money. Sucks growing up. I also really want to get my belly button pierced! I wanted to get my helix peirced but the only jewelery I like for the upper cartilage is the cuff and they don't make much of those for peircings. Usually the cuff isn't for peircings you just slide it over your ear. I want a plain hammered silver cuff. For belly rings I really like this woman's work >http://www.etsy.com/shop/RockYourBelly?order=date_desc
I will probably just get a plain titanium one. I looked at all my clothes last night and I only have one patterned shirt. The rest of them were solids LOL. I always get stuck on stuff..like my necklace or boots and even solids. On the weekends I also have a new job which pays $90 a week. I do janiotial work for my mother's work. There are four bathrooms I have to clean and the rest of the building. Cleaning the bathrooms are discusting but it isn't as bad as vaccuming and mopping. In the mens rooms there are a lot of urine and feces and in the womens its a lot of caked on hairspray and femine products. Bluck! It's only one day a week though for $90 dollars so I think with my lazy life I can make room. Now I am working a whole two days! My job at Hope used to be so fun I worked 2-3 times a week and there were a lot of kids to play with but now...I work only thursdays and with only 1-2 children. I hate it. I never see my coworker anymore and I have never even met my superviser. I write this on the school computer and I must get off at 430..I lost my internet privalages again for being an asshole as usual. I get mad when my mother takes something away because I do not want to go it. Why should I have to clean the whole house to check my facebook? Uh anyways my ride for the day is here...ttml