Wow.....

What the hell. I am so annoyed with people right now. Kyle turned out to be an awkward loser who has been annoying the crap out of me. I'm sitting there obviously not in the mood to talk and he has the nerve to ask me why I'm not talking and if I took my medicine that morning. What a dumb thing to say, just because I'm crabby doesn't mean its because I didn't take my meds. Now I find out that Rachel had her 18th birthday and didn't even bother to invite me. Instead she invites Megan my replacement I guess.
Christmas sucked, we didn't even celebrate. I sat at home with my mother all day, I've been on facebook since morning. I've also been taking care of Miranda's dog. I really like doing that it seems like Miranda's dog is the only person happy to see me other than my cat. Doesn't help that I am poor as dirt...I need a job bad

Things are looking up! Kinda..

Took my senior pictures! Aspen is amazing. Although the man that took them was a little creepy. He said I looked pretty and that I could be a model and it was fun taking picture of me..I hope he was just being friendly. I made two stamps in art club, both woodgrain of course. My favorite pattern! I also made some really good tie-dye! Art club is a lot more fun this year than it was last year. I've been taking Celexa, which has been making me super stoned. I've also made quite a few new friends. We go out to lunch..I know the only reason we hang out is because I let them smoke in my car, but I really enjoy hanging with them. I've even made some money off of them for gas. I'm so excited that sociology and government are almost over! They are the worst classes ever. Don't get me wrong Seefeld is the greatest teacher ever, sociology is just the most boring subject I have ever come in contact with. I just suck at government haha. I also have become friendly with a guy in my chinese class. I am starting to wonder about him though. Like what is wrong with him? He is shy, sometimes mean. He never answers my texts and ignores me and then once in a great while he is super talkitive and really awkward. I liked him at one time but as soon as I heard him talk I was like....wow. Gerr I don't know. Annoyance

Celexa

I was put on this new drug called celexa. I have been feeling stoned for a while. My eye sight is fading in and out, I'm tired, yawning, antisocial, no concentration and my weight has plummeted to 110 pounds. I haven't weighed 110 pounds since freshman year. Multiple people have asked me what is wrong with me. How do you tell someone the reason your stoned is because your taking this drug prescribed for you?

So, okay I have a lot to talk about. I gave that black boy who liked me another girls phone number. Turns out he only dates white girls but I can't stand him because he can't understand me! It is super annoying and he wont admit that he doesn't understand me. But now I actually like this one guy, first time! Yay! I never have really gotten a crush until now lol. He doesn't talk a whole lot but from what he has said I think he has a sense of humor. He has a girlfriend though:(. Plus I don't think he likes me very much, I can't tell. I added him on facebook on monday or tuesday but he still has not added me back. I told him I added him too..so yay me:(
Next I went to HuHot with Miranda and Emily. That was super fun and I had a great bit of ranting with Miranda lol I felt kind of bad that Emily was left out of the conversation most of the time though. I tried to include her..Miranda didn't even attempt to converse with her unless it was asking her about her culture. I found out both Emily and I are intrested in dykes though...for two very different reasons. I actually really enjoyed Emily's company, although sometimes it is hard for me to understand her accent.
I have other things to say but I really don't know how to put what I am feeling into words................................I don't know. I'll figure it out, eventually..